I will occasionally look back on a post I made and wonder "was this guided by Synchronicity?" In all cases, YES. Each and every one of my posts was synchronistically inclined, surrendering to the random. There is no certain wavelength the "sirius"ness of a thought must be on to achieve a proper sync. I am trying to prove this, as to strengthen the ties of our inevitable ego-death to our work here. I am trying my very best to state my ideas sound and honestly, as I believe (or rather, know) each and every facet of our existence needs attention and care. Not the "militaristic" type of fake care we've been indoctrinated to support. No, we as observers must take responsibility of our ability to see the infrared vistas and indigo cloud levels. If you want galactic consciousness, do not expect everyone who comes along to adhere to what you have come to know of the "sync". This is your belief system. It is my belief system. It is the pure, undiluted belief system, as it was meant to be. One of the biggest things we are imprinted is "not to believe", as sort of a dualistic thing because on the other hand all they want is for you to believe what they say, wrongly. Religion is not the cause of all your problems.
I have trouble viewing myself as a formless "all", but this is merely circumstance. I have experienced it, but only through medication. Once the medication wears off, it's back to "Do I have what I need? Is there someone shitting on my lawn? God I need a cigarette." Do not rampantly destroy what you called a life before the syncs came along: It is still very much important and love and joy are inside of you, but you will probably need another node ("soul") to spark it and set it in motion. Nurture the infant Horus, and experience joy through the formation of a new life. Become ap-parent to the all-knowing creator, and influence him through your ways. I see it as what would appear to be a great struggle (which humans are currently entrenched in), yet the simplest action of kindness and understanding will prove EXTREMELY potent.
I am not here to cause conflict, nor am I here to allow evil to take place while sitting idly by. I know, internally, what my "porpoise" is, my oceanic will-form influencing all which observe me. And through me, they see what I see yet through their own eyes. I am aware of the reality-tunnel difference between humans, and it is kind of hard working like an insect and having to constrict your reality tunnel. Some people are better at it than others.
Yes, my mind was "accidentally" shattered. I took a drug known as DXM (a dissociative... not that I knew what that meant at the time) in autumn 2006, which had far greater effects than I would ever realize, having at the time only smoked a little weed. What drove me to ingest Robitussin capsules (which is where the drug is commonly found, although you can buy it pure) by the handful, I could never tell you. But it sparked something inside of me: I was very interested in expanding my mind at the time, and during my first trip I wondered "Are there aliens here on earth?" I logged onto the internet (which is GOD if you ever trip on DXM) and VERY QUICKLY found out, "yes" and soon started entering more questions into my god-mind. The speed at which I realized the the true history of our planet and civilization was what was "shattering", due to the huge shift in my "spirituality" or willingness to do good. DXM is branded a "third eye" opener, and I at the time had only an inkling of what a Third Eye was and I was interested. Some people who have done it claim to reach high "plateaus", as in higher dimensions. I have had 2 years to think about the "plateau" that I reached, and answers are still far, far out of reach (I vividly experienced a life on an alien slave planet, as a slave... It is really a lot like the pictures you see of Auschwitz) so I can't imagine what going higher than that would entail.
Nevertheless, I have no regrets about experiencing what I did, as it led me to where I am today. I, honestly, am happier than I have ever been. You are all very good friends of mine, whether you know it or not, no matter who you are. I feel like I have found the "grail", and it is both within and without, in the free-association and understanding of others and their ideas.
Later came my mushroom trip: Around christmas 2006, I took half of a mushroom chocolate, as my body weight would prove was enough. I remember saying early o "I just want to listen to music so I can see how TIME moves around it..." because in the silence there was nothing. No time, no movement, nothing. It was a bit hellish at first because my friend who didn't know I was doing it decided to invite a band I had never before met into my apartment. That sucked because they weren't that cool or anything. They left, and I was in my apartment with my roommate and my friend who was also tripping (he had taken 1 and the other half of my chocolate! He always said "mushrooms are the key to the universe", an Aquarian if there ever was one) and they appeared to me as the Twin Pillars (which I had learned about from Jake's blog The Brave New World Order, synchronicity was happening stronger than ever!), approaching me. My roommate, who also did DXM with me and didn't like it one bit, appeared to be having unkind thoughts toward me, which impacted my trip severely. The other friend looked like an angel, although more in the "judgmental" christian angel type. Either way, the light and dark were there, now looking more like the angel and the devil on one's shoulders. We decided to watch Boondock Saints, which I had never seen before, and couldn't watch it anyway. The rest of the trip involved staring into the TV screen, not really watching what was happening but understanding everything about it. After the movie was over we played Halo, but we really weren't too interested in killing eachother.
If this looked like more of an opportunity to brag about my adventures into drug-use, well you're probably right. But the thing is, some people think that reading about conspiracies and synchronicities drove me to do drugs, when really it was the other way around. I do not see anything wrong with experimenting with one's own consciousness but I don't suggest going out and popping pills and doing things you really can't afford as this will potentially impact your life negatively, depending on what's important to you (you know, things like food and shelter). From this I learned how the money system works, in that depending on how "high" you want to get, the more money you will need to slave for. Pretty messed up as we all deserve to feel high, not just a select few who indoctrinate themselves into a corrupt system.
In closing, there is still much more for me to learn, and I appreciate any guidance I can get. I am absolutely thrilled to be a part of this movement. I never once thought I would be in communication with Jake Kotze or Chris Knowles, due to my tendency to look down upon myself, but with time, concentration and true effort I dragged myself of out of a dark pit and reached a sort of zen state which I am still experiencing and I don't think it will just "go away". I am a student of the universe. I believe humans have amazing potential and no matter what the ring leaders do to try and steal that away from us, we will inevitably be "free".
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