Feeling different today

It's only been one day since I've smoked like a chimney all day. I feel a little rejuvenated, but the feeling of anxiety and loneliness which the cigarettes "helped" alleviate is returning along with the feeling that time is actually progressing and I might be able to improve my condition and think straight. It's a sign that even though I've been through a lot of shit in my life, my strength needs to be put to use in other areas where I can help people and not constantly think low of myself. One must feel good to do good, as Timothy Leary would say.