Tonight I entered a lower pit of Hell for 3 hours. This was triggered by smoking some weed called "Great White", not knowing of the consequences. It could have been the fact that I haven't smoked in about 2 weeks, but this session was spontaneous and I wasn't expecting what came after. My heart was pounding! Faster than it had ever gone as far as I know. It felt like it was syncing to an etheric pulse, but the speed was mind-staggering. It scared the crap out of me and I had to lie down. It didn't cease, even with my usual medicine of Music. The most horrible thoughts were crossing my mind... It was as if I was dying and entering Hell or a lower astral plane. My heart felt as if it were about to explode. A burning in my chest and spine started to rise, but there was no pain otherwise. I felt true panic as my heart continued pounding and pounding, maintaining a perfect beat for two hours. Closing my eyes brought strange visions, such as the face of a Grey alien. The thought of a weapon being directed at me crossed my mind. I thought of my blog and felt anger from others and felt entirely cast down. I thought of telling someone about my heart but couldn't feel any emotions to relate to anyone, just burning within and coldness from the outside. I eventually told my sister and she told me to drink water and get some fresh air. My life was crumbling apart so easily... I realized I was still afraid of death, and it was coming close. This happened at around 10-11pm. Everything I picked up was talking about aliens and prophecies and I felt fear and shame in myself like never before. Synchronicity turned completely sour and was punishing me for something.
I know it was a message from somewhere, but I'm not sure why I'm receiving it or how. Nothing like this has happened before. I'm afraid I attracted the attention of something really bad with my writings here. I felt like something was beaming thoughts into my mind. I wondered if I was really in a nightmare and I needed to wake up. It felt entirely unreal, or maybe too real. Either way, it was unsettling and I'm thoroughly shaken.
5 comments:
Dude, relax...From someone with first-hand experience in these matters, all I can say is, 'quit doing it to yourself'. Get clean, strong and healthy as we all need to be in these times in which we live. It's hard enough trying to keep a clear head with all the bullshit in the food/water/air, then to be fully intoxicating yourself directly and purposely. We have a battle before us which requires all of us to be in our top form. I don't mean to be a preacher, but I have totally been there (many times). Maybe this was the reason why it happened to you, so I could write you this....Peace Brother...
IWithout wishing to be a scaremonger many people smoke weed today yet have a 'romantic' view of it that really isn't warranted anymore. Todays its factory made , marketed , and the usual western need for HIT designed into it.
Then mix it with various mish-mash of blogs and their subject matter and u have a rrecipe that I'm sure had been cooked up in a lab and adjusted for social control.
Also many of the blogs are talking about disturbing subjects that seem out of anyboy's control.
I note the double bind in UK - lots of weed smoking, weed oriented clothing yet the govt. clamping down on it.
Your sister got it right - breathe
I do smoke and have done, though its on and off.
cheers
oddly in my most recent post I'd finished off with 'mind the plants'
Hello, Mr. Kozmikon, I only just made your acquaintance last night. Great White is a "brand" of cannabis mixed with cocaine. Us Str8 Edgers who USED to be big alchies and/or druggies are well acquainted with the deleterious affects of mixing various forms of so-call'd contraband.
Punta roja (POON-tah ROW-hah) Spanish for "red point", from Oaxaca (Wah-Hah-Kah), a Mexican province currently rife with civil war, was my all-time favourite. Mellow, psychedelic, aromatic with a hint of pine.
I'm fifty-one now. I'm in Recovery, true, 420 friendly, but I no longer imbibe.
Say, have you ever seen Ben Stewart's hour-almost-twenty-five-minutes-long "KYMATICA" before? I found that last night, too. So far, it's available in its entirety, gratis. Have a look:
http://video.google.ca/videoplay?docid=-6736722752013377089&hl=en
There ya have it, son. The secret of the world. Now? What do we all do w/t knowledge?
Best wishes awe ways,
Anadæ Effro ( :-)}
Ooof! You, Tommy, are the very source of my having been introduced to the "KYMATICA" film by Ben Stewart, who happened to have had an Oglala Lakota styled wedding, much in support of the indigenous shamanic cultures that the Crown wished to wipe out in order to further subjugate the masses.
So, thanks again. It'll make a great DVD gift for those on my Seekers list. I was losing track of who was responsible for directing me to which sites. I'm up to scanning thirty blogs as it is. Peops're wondering when I, my(s0elf, are going to get MY blog up & running. Well, who 'Gnos'?
Staying safe, staying sane, staying sober,
Anadæ Effro ( :-)}
"Great White is a 'brand' of cannabis mixed with cocaine."
I knew it! Something just wasn't right about it at all. I've never done cocaine and had wished to keep it that way. Thank you so much for your knowledge!
Aferris - I have thought about that a lot: how a one-two punch is administered by the combo of "higher" experience + knowledge of deep corruption. Brings a feeling of hopelessness, which I'm guessing most other people who smoke are adapted to or unaware of. I never understood it... The way people can avoid areas of their mind full of answers just have a "good time".
M.O. - Thanks. My habit of smoking weed already ruined the best relationship+friendship I was ever a part of (really, a combination of smoking weed + keeping it a secret from my GF) so I'm aware it has a bad effect on me... The second time I ruined the relationship between her and I was through alcohol. Two things I told her I wasn't interested in at the beginning! Definitely harmful, IMO...
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