I just pulled myself out of bad train of thought. For some reason I can't explain I will occasionally descend into utter darkness and cynical self-judgment. This has happened to me day in and day out, every day for as long as I can remember. I can't maintain a positive state of mind for too long or the balance becomes compromised. I can feel judgment piercing my heart and my thoughts. Memories of love lost return to scorch my soul. Any progress I might make is instantly dashed and I have to start all over again.
I had a pretty good dream last night. Jake Kotze was teaching a class on Synchromysticism and I was a student in a classroom full of other people. It was really lucid but I can't remember any details. A lot of my friends were there, which was strange because as far as I know they are not familiar with Synchromysticism in the least. I have a feeling they learned something, though.
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