This is the alchemical symbol for gold, also a symbol of the sun and of the Third Eye chakra. It is comprised of a zero and a point, making Zero Point. Supposedly we will reach zero point in in 2012 according to Terence Mckenna's Timewave Zero.
Now for my daily whining, since I can't seem to experience anything "high" without a consequential extreme low... Today, unable to fulfill my addiction to cigarettes and having not self-medicated with cannabis in 2 weeks (feels like forever), I had a strange, dismal feeling: I'm dead, my life as I know it started when I died, and I'm currently in what could be described as hell. Everything I touch, I ruin. Everything I love, I hurt. Every day is more uncomfortable and unpredictable than the last. These thoughts are based on my emotions. Sometimes I feel completely dead on the inside... I can't explain it well enough, which adds to my frustration. I feel as if I've been dropped into a dark place full of hulking carnivorous beasts, and time is stretching out that fleeting, horrid moment just before they tear me to pieces. To add on to this utter loss of stability, I owe one of my former friends money that I don't have, but will soon be receiving and it's all going towards debt from an extremely traumatizing time in my life. I repressed my memories from that time so I don't understand how or why I owe anyone anything.
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