Threshold of Transformation

Isis - Threshold of Transformation

Off to a bad start today. Seems like every day is like this now...

Another tree fell down today, in our neighbor's yard this time.

I caught an ad on the TV upstairs which said "Explore the planet Chewpiter", I think it was a Snickers ad. I then proceeded to see 241 (numbers of Jupiter) in different combinations everywhere I looked for a few minutes. I still don't quite know what it means when this happens, or what it's trying to tell me. Another ad came up which had "PANormous" on the screen. Pan, plus Ormus which is another name for Monatomic Gold.

I felt genuinely crappy today, my whole body ached and I was hungry but I wanted to avoid the gathering of people upstairs. I must be really thin-skinned. I've been reading Fritz Springmeier's Illuminati Formula to Create an Undetectable Total Mind Control Slave lately, I've read through parts of it over the past couple of years but haven't quite read it in full. There are a lot of really scary synchronicities involving my life and what he says in the book, which makes it kind of hard for me to read (the part about Premature Births stood out, since I was born 3 weeks premature). One of my ex-girlfriends said (a while ago, before I knew about any of this) she thinks I have Borderline Personality Disorder. It's not the first time someone suggested that something is wrong with me mentally, but never so specifically. I have this constant feeling that it's my fault for being screwed up which makes me feel like I somehow have control over it. I don't know how to explain.